I'm too disoriented to type a cohesive post...so here is a jot list of thoughts as I look back on my first year of seminary.
1. Holy crap. I don't have any homework to do tonight. That's a strange feeling.
2. I'm still adjusting to the idea of being in seminary at all, let alone being a third of the way through!
3. It was both harder and easier than I expected, in very different ways. And it was not at all what I expected and everything that I hoped it would be. It both let me down miserably and lived up to all my dreams for it and more. For those of you who think I'm making a huge deal when it's "just school": this is so much different than school. It is school, no doubt and it is highly demanding school at that. A classmate who has been though law school said that law school is nothing compared to this. Maybe I should have decided to be a lawyer. They make more money. Anyway, the is a spiritual and emotional aspect to it as well. The spiritual growth I have experienced this past year has been downright painful. It's also been downright amazing. I am getting better and better looks at the woman God made me to be and I'm seeing that it's worth it. He designed me to do something specific and special and unique and I'm starting to really believe that.
4. I was a lousy friend (and even worse blogger) this year. Sorry about that, everyone. My friends and family have been largely supportive and I couldn't have made it through this year without all the prayers surrounding me.
5. Wow, I'm married to a patient man.
6. My kids have also learned a great deal of independence this year. I'd have liked them to be more independent at times, but we have two more years to work out the kinks.
6. I just went to type this one and realized it's the second #6. One nice thing about seminary? No math.
7. Merit scholarships are more stress than they are worth. Especially if you tend to be a little. . . Uh. . . "Me" to begin with. Seriously. . . "Hi! We have massive amounts of money for you but you can only have it if you get a ridiculously high GPA every term. Relax, and don't worry about it. How are the kids?"
8. Despite myself, I am already excited for next year. I get new classes AND field education! I have a feeling I'm going to be rattling around relatively bored by the end of summer. I live for a fast pace.
9. If you have thought about seminary, you should go visit one. I wouldn't take back this last year for anything.